fastingfromsexforoneyear

3 weeks before my husband left something happened that i never saw coming.  every military book i read prepared me for certain patterns that could  be expected from one another but none covered how I would react. 3 weeks prior to “D” day i changed. I changed dramatically.  I literally stopped functioning.  I quit cleaning everything, dressing my self, my husband would leave and come home at the end of the day with me just in the same spot. I explained to him I just lost all motivation to do any thing even basic things.  As far as taking care of my son I did but it was just like i was on auto pilot. I recall times I would try to do the basics like dress my self only to find my self break down crying curled up in fetal position or crying with my head leaning on the pantry or even my whole body just broken down leaning on my dresser for support.  When I dropped off my husband I tried to stay strong but once I left it was the climax of all my crying and i cried so hard.  At one point I pulled my car over just to regain my composure to drive.  My husband has been gone for almost 2 weeks now. I have kept myself so busy by helping everyone but myself.  I barely have found the time to do anything useful in my home.  Finding that balance has been very challenging. Even so in these past 2 weeks my son has gone from diapers to underwear and he has made maybe 2 mistakes. 

I have learned that real friendship is hard to come by and some people are way to sensitive.  I had a friend who I asked if she was okay seeing she looked miserable. In the dictionary miserable means unhappy.  For some reason she got so upset over my comment that she claims she couldn’t eat went home and went straight to sleep and woke up the next morning bleeding. Some how the overly sensitive girls are telling me that i was cruel and that i am responsible for this girl if she miscarries. I was genuinely concerened and even so she was genuinely oversensitive. I realize some people you should just use smaller words seeing the bigger ones could be misinterpreted for something negative.