fastingfromsexforoneyear

The reality is my husband could die, he is a soldier.  The problem is trying to forget that reality and find a healthy balance.  I have wanted a bathrobe for a long time.  When my Lands’ End Catalogue showed up at my home I couldnt be more ecstatic.  I went thru the pages and found a Turkish robe.  I called in and when they asked me if I wanted my initials on the robe, I burst into tears.  What if I have my initials the big S for my last name and than what if my husband died.  would I still want his initial on my robe?   Wouldn’t it just depress me more to see that S on my robe?  I start telling the lady who answered the line my dilemma.  In addition If he stays alive he would be so hurt if I didn’t have our last initial on my robe.  How could just getting some thing as simple as initials seem so difficult for me. 

My husband has only been gone two month. The first month 2 soldiers from his unit died and 12 got injured by a mortar that hit the post they were all on.  The second month the man from my husbands company to be more exact the men from  my husbands platoon came across an ied and two of the guys got injured but it wasn’t deadly.  In this 2nd month another ied hit a friend of the family.  If his dog didn’t detect the explosive he would be dead but instead the dog died.  As for our friend he is in recovery.  I am not being paranoid about my husband being in danger.   I am being realistic but I am struggling to find this balance when it seems constantly my husbands platoon is barely dodging bullets.  Well now that I got that out of my system, until next time.