fastingfromsexforoneyear

Here is some free advice, The secret to not cheating on a spouse deployed in Iraq is no male friends what so ever! if you think a male is to far away or downright ugly i assure you that is no safety net. I am at last in an emotional affair. No sexual stuff involved but i am now attached to someone who is over 8000 miles away just because he was their to listen. i never meant for this to happen which is why I am sharing this so you don’t make the same innocent mistakes I have. Seriously no male friends or you set yourself up to fail!  I have vowed I would be a good role model and just one month shy of my spouse arriving and it is now that i have failed.  Things have spiraled out of control so quickly that now this “friend” is leading me to believe he is in love with me and has even said he will marry me if I anything happened to my man.  He even had the nerve to joke by saying be nice to my stepchild! How dare he?  He is not a part of my marriage but has so much power to destroy it. If only he been a gay guy. Why can’t I make a single male friend who doesn’t eventually claim to have fallen in love with me.  Yeah my looks aren’t great but I assure you my personality isn’t either.   So frustrated I don’t love this guy or want him sexually but i do want his companionship for the time being, i know if ever alone with him, my desire for intimacy is so much greater that I would surely fail.  Enough is enough and i will simply have to end this friendship.

What is far worse is i should be repulsed by anyone who disrepects me my husband or my marriage but instead I long for a mans role in my life so much more.  Am I using this friend?  I may and if so that makes me even more of a horrible person.  How can I be alone to blame when it is he who is hitting on a married woman?