fastingfromsexforoneyear

My 2 week emotional affair is over but I think of his fantasies of sitting next to a woman in a skirt with no panties in places ranging next to him in a plane and even the movie theater.  To many a sexual pervert to me the ideal sex fein.  How do you get over someone when everything you look at reminds you of them? I can’t get away!  I needed an escape so I finally bought a vibrating toy for myself today.  11 month into deployment and it is now that I buy a toy. The purpose of the toy is to escape to that rather than this other mans arms. Yet while their I learned of toys I never could fathom.  I discovered for woman who prefer their mans anatomy they have clay molds that once dried up is a complete replica of his anatomy and even serves the same purpose as “the rabbit.”… yes this molding you make of your mans anatomy vibrates!   It made me think, would it be wrong tell someone other than your spouse to send you that, you know a clay molding of their anatomy?  Its not like your cheating its just a replica of a mans anatomy just like any other “pleasure toy” out their…  I can’t believe the way I am thinking this is beyond desparate.  I explained to the teller it was either this toy or the arms of another man not my husband and I refuse to cheat.  The teller told me that is a pleasant surprise because i would be amazed how many military wives go their with men who are not their husbands to buy toys for their pleasure.  While I do share my sexual desire or thoughts I do not act out on it and this is what does set me apart from the ones that do eventually cheat.